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About Me Member Procrastinator Missy20/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 2 Years
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  • Current Residence: Dreeary Eeerie, PA.
  • Interests: Art, music, gaming, hair, fashion, anything, really. I'm real open-minded.
  • Favourite band or musician: Too many to stick in this little text-box.
  • Favourite genre of music: Alternative, metal, punk, Jrock, ect.. any, really. I'm open to mostly anything.
  • Wallpaper of choice: Probably Kuja..
  • Favourite game: Metal Gear Solid, Halo, Grim Fandango, Silent Hill, Ect.. tons more. I'll play literally any.
  • Favourite gaming platform: Any and all I can afford.. D:

20.

Wed Sep 9, 2009, 3:04 AM
I missed it by a while, and I actually had a lot to say at the time, but my 20th Birthday was on August 31st.

I want to say THANK YOU SO MUUUCH to anyone who remembered, here, Facebook, or Myspace, and wished me a happy Birthday! It meant so much to me that anyone thought of me that day, I can't even tell you. <3



19 was a personal struggle of a year, for me, from start to finish. I want to try to treat 20 like New Years, to try to make it a better year. A lot of 19's events and issues are bleeding through, but I'm taking more steps to make things better than I had been, I guess. I just need to grab ahold of everything, again.

The best explanation I can give for my inactivity and general silence often is that I am dealing with severe depression, and have been for a long time. It comes with a loss of interest, or at least effort to look interested, in things that I wouldn't even have to go out of my way to do. I'm not trying for sympathy, and I really don't even like to talk much about it because of that, but I'm trying to get myself medication and am also in therapy for this and my social anxiety/phobias. I'm trying to dig out of the rut. At least at this moment I feel more pleasantly numb than much else.

So. The game-plan for the next while is unclear. There are some personal/family/home/living condition problems that aren't making things much better, and my insomnia is pretty rabid at this point, but I'm alive.



BUT! Let's try to be positive, for the sake of being alive, here. This is life, and all that. This journal is like a pie, because the crust is the happy part, and it's on the bottom. How's that. <3

I'm not trying to bitch and moan, even though I say that and always do, and I even have a journal I do that in that is private to spare everyone said bitching and moaning, but I guess I felt like I needed something update-ish, here.



This all isn't to say that I haven't been drawing. Mostly doodles over at my oekaki, I'll try to post some of those later-soon, if I remember.

I've been checking everyone's updates often, and it actually cheers me up to see art by all of my friends/talented people on here, even if I don't comment nearly as often as I should, and hardly ever reply to comments. I read them, and love them, I assure you. <3

I am like a lurker, but I lurk with love, and know that Missy is in ur DAz, stalkin ur art an givin it lovinz, in my own way. :3

Even if that's a little creepy..
I won't tell you if I'm literally molesting your art.
Or what that stain is.. :0
:heart:

COMMISSION INFO IS HEAH.
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  • Mood: Llama
  • Listening to: Old game soundtracks/Shiina Ringo.
  • Watching: Spoony Experiment.
  • Playing: Dissidia/ Silent Hill 2/ Persona 4.

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:iconkaseybrianne:
i just caught your 6,666 pageview oh boy oh boy
:iconthesealedvoid:
*pinches your cheeks*
:flirty:

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You see, when a man loves a woman very much or she has a great rack, he..- wait, that isn't your dilemma is it?
:iconmetal-fusion:
why do like all of your works say the name "Shi"
in the title?

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"Silly fagot! Dicks are for chicks!!"
-Hed PE
:iconmannequin-sexual:
Shi means I use the oekaki program 'Shi Painter.'

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I love the java jive and it loves me.
:iconmetal-fusion:
o... sorry...
recent break up and her name was shi :P
so her name is kinda haunting me v.v

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"Silly fagot! Dicks are for chicks!!"
-Hed PE
:iconmannequin-sexual:
I'm so sorry! D:

I used to just put 'oekaki', but there's some difference between the this and the other program. I've been thinking of switching back to the 'oekaki' label, anyway, though.

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I love the java jive and it loves me.
:iconmetal-fusion:
its fine ^^;
just tends to happen after a break up

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"Silly fagot! Dicks are for chicks!!"
-Hed PE
:iconwiseman86:
I was thinking of you and just decided to give your page some love.


And remember the Home Improvement theme, lol.

:heart:

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WE'RE DOOMED
but the show
must go on!
:iconnipplehead:
Your gallery is pretty intense! I wanna look at it long time. Hi5. *watches*

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come hither, child.... come hither ( >o_o)>
:iconmannequin-sexual:
Thank you so much!

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I love the java jive and it loves me.

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